It's so weird that 2010 is almost over, and 2011 is nearly here. A little less than 8 hours left here. I can't say that I'm all that sorry to see it go. It's sucked. This has been one of the worst years I can remember.
Ryan and I have struggled this year. I think that things are on the upswing, so that's good, but its been a difficult year for us.
I lost my only remaining grandparent in April. I can't say that Grandma's passing was unexpected, because when I saw her over the holidays in 2009, she wasn't as spry as she usually had been. Staying here in Wyoming for the holidays this year, I've felt her absence even more acutely, I guess. I just miss my family.
It's been an interesting year at work, too. I feel like I'm not doing my best this year...I feel like there's so many demands behind the scenes that I'm not able to do the REAL work growing my kiddos. I feel like I'm not being fair to them. And they deserve the best.
Sometimes I feel gypped when it comes to the baby stuff. I swear that everyone I know is in the family way. And no one else struggles. I know that's not true. I feel like God has overlooked us. I know that's not true, and I know that He's not punishing us, but I wonder what the lesson is here. I think we'd be wonderful parents.
So, anyway, I'm hoping that 2011 will bring good things. 2010 wasn't a total wash, and maybe I'm a bit of a pessimist. It can only get better.
A happy, warm, blessed 2011 to you, dear friends...
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